secret #21 breaking your heart breaks mine on a whole new level

I hate breaking someone's heart.
It's worse than having my own heart broken sometimes.
standing there watching there face.
knowing that there isn't anything you can do.
you just want them to keep their innocence.
and that none of this had to happen.
But there's nothing you can do.
except to accept it.
I feel like I'm the most terrible person in the whole world. :(

Secret #20 What's next?

I have felt all alone.
surrounded by people. But completely alone.
with no one to talk to.
havent really wanted to socialize.
I feel like my friends are dropping like flies.
and the few people I want to talk to... arent there.
I feel so alone.