Secret #13 Sometimes. I love pain.

sometimes. its true.

i love that pain.

no not physical pain.

but emotional.

sometimes. i love crying.

feeling those tears running down my cheeks.

hurting.

waking up and not knowing what to do.

being alone.

i have become very accustomed to being alone

and sometimes i do need my alone time.

pushing everyone away.

i like that. why?

i do not know.

its like it was my life for so long..

and part of me will always be there.

part of me is always hurting.

part of me is always and will probably be always missing.

this is me.

dont try to change me.

sometimes im sad.

and i dont know why.

dont hold it against me. please.

Secret #12 I hate the word promise.

i hate that word.
dont ever promise me anything.

i dont believe in that word

it killed me.

it gave me hope

it made me happy

then it destroyed me.
MR PERFECT is the one that made me hate that word

i cant even think about it without hurting anymore

i dont know if i'll ever trust that word again.

you ruined that word for me.

i hurt everytime i hear that word.

it'll never be the same.

i want to believe in that word again though.

help me plz?