Secret #13 Sometimes. I love pain.

sometimes. its true.

i love that pain.

no not physical pain.

but emotional.

sometimes. i love crying.

feeling those tears running down my cheeks.

hurting.

waking up and not knowing what to do.

being alone.

i have become very accustomed to being alone

and sometimes i do need my alone time.

pushing everyone away.

i like that. why?

i do not know.

its like it was my life for so long..

and part of me will always be there.

part of me is always hurting.

part of me is always and will probably be always missing.

this is me.

dont try to change me.

sometimes im sad.

and i dont know why.

dont hold it against me. please.