secret #19 I wouldn't be surprised if I do marry one of them.

It's weird. you know.
to have two people who are so close to you
tell you that when it comes down to who you're going to marry
it'll either be this guy or this guy.
The first suitor is one of my best friends
he is on a LDS mission in Minnesota.
I've had a crush on him for awhile.
But. He'll be gone for another year and a half.
So who knows what will happen.
And the other... Is the complicated one.
Suitor #2 I met in highschool.
he was that player douche bag that actually ended up to be really sweet...
we kind of got together a year ago
but he went off to basic training and I went two hours away to college.
I've been trying to get back with him ever since.
It scares me that my friend and my cousin
truly honestly think I will marry one of these boys.
It's a bit insane. I just don't even want to think about boys right now.
I am loving just being single. sort of.
Suitor #2 I can't get out of my head.
Boys are stupid, guys hit on me and I get annoyed.
If he told me he wanted a relationship I'd be all for it.
But any other guy... hell no.