Secret #7 im vulnerable cause im broken.

secret #6 i thought i loved you. but i didn't....

This blog is about a boy we'll call STRIPES.

he was the first boy i really really liked.

all the other boy's before him were just little crushes.

and then with him... there was that spark.

have you heard that song the first cut is the deepest? its true.

and when he went away. he really hurt me..

we still talked. got closer. shared secrets.

even though he kept hurting me, i was drawn to him.

i remember telling him one day

your either the best thing for me

(when he would make me smile, and make me happy)

or the worst thing for me

(cause he just kept hurting me over and over again)

he really is sorry for hurting me.

im over it now.

i was missing him for two years.

in 2 1/2 years he hurt me so many times.

tryed to count once.

i got to 25 times and lost count.

i can look back on it now. and look back at the good times we had.

one night. he told me he loved me.

i was so happy..

he didnt mean it though.

he was scared of commitment,

now he has a girl that has changed him for the better.

im glad im over you.

i'll never forget you though.

im crazy i know, i thought u were special.

i do love you. not like i thought i did.

you'll always be one of my best friends

no regerts <3

thankyou.

Secret #5 BFF? i'll never find another like you.

This is HELLO KITTY. HK are her real initials.

she was my best friend. best to the extreme.

we were those friends,

that didnt care what others thought.

that crazy two that were always together.

the ones you were almost jealous of their friendship

i’ll never have another friend like you.

we met in 5th grade. we were friends

till about my junior year in high school.

we were known for our endless list of inside jokes.

and our 1400 pictures. we took pictures all the time.

that was all we did. we took pictures of

every moment. every face. every where.

including in the bathtub.... haha.

and some other odd places for sure

i always put more into the friendship than her.

she got into things that weren’t so good.

I found out about the drugs, drinking, sex, and more.

(recently i found out that she even dropped out of HS)

shes also pregnant now..

it wasnt my best friend.

we had never gotten in to a fight.

so i didnt want to confront her.

so we just slowly stopped talking....

we went to different schools..

we just kind of ended.

she let me down. she didnt use to be like that.

i dont know why that hurt so much.

but it did. i lost my best friend.

if you’ve been through that its hard to heal.

ive gotten to the point where im ok.

i can look back on the memories and smile.

its been hard.

but she’ll always have a special place in my heart.

i’ll never find another best friend that compares to you.

one of the things that hurt the most

was hearing other people talk.

i didnt think it was you.

but i guess i was wrong.

the things piled up. and i realized they had to be true.

after a long time. we hadnt talked in ages.

i sent her a message over facebook. and she confirmed it.

she let me down. i wonder if she know that...

i miss you.

the girl you used to be.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9YbEtfJryXA

Secret #4 bad memories are the first thing that comes to mind when i look back.

When I was a child I had a embarrassing problem.

I couldnt escape it.
It was just there.
and i hated it.
I didnt feel like all the other kids.
and they would laugh at me alot.
somtimes daily..
my mom had to come pick me up from school all the time
When my little cousin asked me to tell her some childhood memories.

automatically all the bad times flooded my mind.

In 5th grade i had surgery which fixed the problem.

It was pricey for my parents.

but in my opinion very much so worth it.